Here is a picture from off my deck from last Thursday...
we've had about 60 inches of snow so far this month. 
In it's usual blurred fashion, Christmas has come and gone. After some much needed cleaning, my house is almost back to normal. The boys both were spoiled as usual. With Christmases at four houses, it's hard not to be. Gotta love the grandparents! Well, I guess I forgot to upload the pictures, so they'll have to wait.
Matching in their cute Christmas jammies, reading a book.
And a couple from the scouts' Christmas Caroling. Kai was quite a ham!
We spent Thanksgiving at my sister's house and had a wonderful dinner. Afterward, we went to visit GiGi for what would turn out to be our last time.
Luke and Daddy on Turkey Day at my sister's house.
Cousin Collin-Ballin enjoying a toothbrush-snack
Uncle Clay tormenting Kai
The day after Thanksgiving we have a parade, fireworks and lighting ceremony, one of my favorite days in CDA....
Brrr... it was cold, Luke and Papa all bundled up
Kai enjoying his hot chocolate
Kai on Papa's shoulders watching the fireworks
It was a little foggy, so the fireworks were hard to see, but still nice.
And a couple random ones from the mall spaceship, every boy's favorite
Lucas and I went with my sister, nephew and dad to Denver for two days this week for my Aunt Barb's funeral. It was a hard trip, both for the reason we went and because Lucas decided sleep was overrated and kept me up most of the night. The silver lining, if there is one is that was great to get to see my aunts, uncles and cousins. Luke absolutely adored my Aunt Patty's girls and Aunt Ruth's boys... I wish we lived closer to them.
Papa pulling double duty
I guess that about catches me up for now...
No matter how much I try to hang on to status quo, it never works. And it drives me crazy. Just when I think I'm cruising along, making progress, all is well, God throws a wrench in my plans. I feel like I got a major wrench recently. This past month, we have had four deaths in our family. And honestly, I don't know what to say about all of it other than I am very sad. That's about all I can say right now. I know the whole "circle of life" mumbo jumbo but honestly right now, I am too raw to care. I like my loved ones right here, with me. Selfish, definitely. Honest, yeah. Some changes just don't feel like they're for the good. After the latest news came, I felt like I wanted to become a hermit and just hold my boys in my arms forever so that I wouldn't miss a moment of their lives just incase I'm taken before I'm old and grey. It makes my stomach turn to think about. I am going to stop now... I feel tears a'wellin.
Going to go kiss my babies... Goodnight.
